Monday, March 30, 2009

How did this happen!?

Lately I find myself asking this question all the time? How did this happen? and by this I mean all of it, the family, the coffeehouse, the job, the music, the goes on and on. I'm not complaining by any means. In fact it's the opposite. I'm just trying to decide if it's because I wanted it to, I willed it or if there is some kind of fate. Do I want to know the answer? I can't even answer that one. I guess the next thing to decide is if I want more control or less. The ladder is definitely more tempting and feels more right. The kids have allowed me to see the natural instincts toward life and have also pointed out my own weaknesses along the way. I have an extremely short fuse. It's something I need to get a handle on sooner than later. My wife is great about it because she knows and can let me know that I'm already over the top. Yoga, meditation and exercise seem to help the most but with limited time dedicated to any of the three lately I have been a little short with people. I'm addressing it......enjoying the ride along the way and thanking fate for the time being.